urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:nowayoftelling you can never dream it down through being cool 2005-12-30T08:07:05Z urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:nowayoftelling:58130 2005-12-30T08:07:05Z 2005-12-30T08:07:05Z Novillero the power was turned on this morning at spartacus books. the store looks so beautiful all lit up. so fucking beautiful. it seriously made my day! Amy came by to shop and i was able to briefly see Nico as well when she came to relieve me of my shift. we made plans to have tea tomorrow afternoon. i've missed that girl!<br /><br />Clarissa and i did some shopping downtown this afternoon. we spent a&b sound gift certificates on two dvds: The Virgin Suicides and Empire Records. we also picked up the two latest issues of X-Men from Golden Age. i cannot wait to go back there on sunday for their supersale!<br /><br />i gave up on trying to read my entire textbook by wednesday. i am going to read it chapter-by-chapter each week so that i will not overload and bore myself. <br /><br />i cannot wait to be able to make some decent purchases. they will probably have to wait until the springtime. until then, i have ducttaped the bottom of my shoes and am settling for an answering machine that is older than some of the youth i work with. there will be many other afternoons dedicated to new shoes and pay-as-you-go cell phones. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:nowayoftelling:57637 2005-12-26T21:27:54Z 2005-12-26T21:28:37Z Fruit Bats ok so i sort of left my home, walked a block, and did some boxing day shopping.<br /><br />i just could not resist picking up the home remedies that escents discontinued when they introduced more synthetics!<br /><br />so now i'm the proud owner of two bottles of comfrey gel -- one mixed with geranium and tea tree and one mixed with rosemary and lavender, an aroma mist make of chamomile and ylang ylang, a roll-on oil mixed with peppermint and rosemary, and two synergies.<br /><br />also, i picked up a traveller mug from work.<br /><br />grand damage: $36 urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:nowayoftelling:57360 2005-12-26T08:30:10Z 2005-12-26T08:31:30Z xmas has come and gone and i survived it.<br /><br />Clarissa was the perfect holiday companion. on xmas eve, we dressed up in our nicest clothes and went for swiss boca burgers and onion rings at denny's. then we returned home, baked chocolate chip cookies, watched It's a Wonderful Life, and danced around to the Bright Eyes xmas album. in the morning, i visited Emma, Zan, and Braeden, and then went to my mum's with Clarissa. my mum had put together stockings for the two of us and Konstantine. i got some mixing bowls, a spice rack, a collander, and crystal votive holders -- my mum knows me well for getting me kitchen supplies! and Konstantine got a homemade kitty treat kit with a fish shaped cookie cutter and a new food bowl. we watched Elf, ate tons of vegetarian xmas food, and played games with my brother and his wife. it was very sweet.<br /><br />boxing day is going to be filled with cleaning, studying, and an evening visit to Lili's home. i have ten chapters to read in ten days. the rest of the week will be filled with work, some socializing, and a date on wednesday night.<br /><br />hopefully i will be able to breathe again in 2007.<br /><br />other cute additions to this post:<br /><br />* the wb owns my soul<br />* Clarissa and i made new characters for our sims game which include the Weiner family from Welcome to the Dollhouse and Chad Michael Murray, who my character is dating<br />* we just finished watching season one of the gilmore girls *swoon*<br />* i finished my afghan and it is so comfy and snugglicious<br />* i hope to have everyone's xmas presents finished for valentine's day<br /><br />that's all &lt;3! urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:nowayoftelling:57250 2005-12-25T09:45:23Z 2005-12-25T09:45:23Z <img src="http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v105/mybigdreams/xmas.jpg" alt="Image hosted by Photobucket.com"><br /><br /><i>please excuse the bad scanjob. this picture was found one night by me and Karen.</i> urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:nowayoftelling:56072 2005-12-22T08:29:42Z 2005-12-22T08:29:42Z <center><h2>happy birthday</h2><br />to two very special people<br /><br /><img src="http://www.bridgeschool.org/images/camp_timy_superman.jpg"><br /><br /><h1>amykins</h1><br />and<br /><h1>kimmeh</h1></center> urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:nowayoftelling:55845 2005-12-22T05:47:16Z 2005-12-22T05:47:16Z Hot Hot Heat damn you, 7th heaven christmas episode, for striking me with a lightning bolt of xmas spirit and making me cry.<br /><br />it is always those xmas specials that get me...<br /><br />on another note, i am working on square 11 of 12 for my afghan. the plan is to have it finished so that Clarissa and i can snuggle under it on xmas eve while watching cheesy xmas movies and drinking hot cocoa. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:nowayoftelling:55567 2005-12-21T22:03:28Z 2005-12-21T22:03:28Z The Ladies and Gentlemen <b>thank you so much, devin, for your amazing performances last night!</b><br /><br />and thank you to everyone for coming out last night to unsweetened, especially to fergie who went onstage and performed! great job!<br /><br />today is my official day off. i slept until 11am, missing two calls to see if i could come into work. i am going to fill my afternoon with laundry, studying, cleaning, and crochetting. depending on the weather and my energy, i am going to attend the lanterm festival with Emma. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:nowayoftelling:55351 2005-12-19T03:19:38Z 2005-12-19T03:19:38Z Metric i've been avoiding writing an actual entry. i'm not exactly sure why. i'm alone at the apartment for the moment. my roommate is off at work and i just finished cleaning my room. i figured this would be a good time to update.<br /><br />i have been working non-stop. it is great for my tuition and debts, but is wearing on my body. i have returned to taking naps -- today's was not even to deal with depression. i've been at the starbucks for over a month now and i am actually enjoying myself. the job is pretty simple. the people can be difficult at time though. <br /><br />i took friday off and spent it with Clarissa. we went to value village and picked out some cute clothes for $5 and i picked up some yarn from lewiscraft for 40%. now i have enough stock to finish my afghan. we spent the evening running around metrotown, stalking pretty boys and daydreaming. then we met up with Jordan and watched Narnia -- which was fucking beautiful. it topped Lord of the Rings in a huge way for me. one word = magical.<br /><br />somewhere inbetween my misadventures at work and avid crafting, i managed to make a cameo at Emma's xmas party. i was able to spend an hour with some sweet people and still make it to work at 7:30am this morning.<br /><br />Jason brought me a very late xmas present -- SIMS. yes, Clarissa and i have entered the angsty world of SIMS which brings us joy during the hours that we cannot sleep. unfortunately, it has curbed out gilmore girls addiction.<br /><br />that is about everything. now i will return to the world of organizing my life. hope to see a few of you out at unsweetened this tuesday night&lt;3 urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:nowayoftelling:55139 2005-12-14T07:29:03Z 2005-12-15T19:32:53Z <center><h1>unsweetened and outspoken</h1><br /><br /><h2>queer open mic night</h2><br /><br />featuring<br />a special gender performance by<br /><br /><h1>devin</h1><br /><i>www.dev-bot.com</i><br /><br />plus many other spoken word artists, musicians, and poetry extraordinaires<br /><br />hosted by kim shaughnessy and nathaniel k. wolfe<br /><br /><b>special date:</b><br /><br /><h2>tuesday, december 20th</h2><br /><br />sign up 8:30 - show 9pm<br /><br /><b>new venue:</b><br /><br /><h2>el cocal</h2><br />1037 commercial drive (@ napier)<br /><br /><h2>$3 - 5 sliding scale</h2><br /><br />no one will be turned away at the door!</center> urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:nowayoftelling:54784 2005-12-14T06:46:45Z 2005-12-14T06:49:06Z Bright Eyes i am such a paranoid android.<br /><br />like conor oberst on junk.<br /><br /><i>ps sorry if i'm horrible at returning comments or just not replying to some comment lately. i've just been avoiding the online world. i need to take breaks from the interweb.</i> urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:nowayoftelling:53331 2005-12-08T11:09:57Z 2005-12-08T11:09:57Z Bright Eyes i am satisfied enough with Braeden's xmas present in order to go to bed. <b>to anyone who knows what i've been making NO TELLING!</b>. i just need to add on a few odds and ends and do some reinforcements. all i can say is that i'm proud.<br /><br />and i have a date on saturday night. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:nowayoftelling:52859 2005-12-07T04:40:57Z 2005-12-07T04:40:57Z Sleater-Kinney i've been so busy lately that i've been neglecting the eljay, so here is my entry:<br /><br />i am loving my new roommate! Clarissa is the ideal match for me in the world of east van. we drink tea together in the morning and at night, we craft while watching gilmore girls episodes. the apartment is finally receiving a makeover which will be officially unveiled upon completion. i am happy to have found someone who i can hermit with in our home. i am reminded of the good times that i once had with Lindsay, but without the addiction to the internet.<br /><br />i've been working at starbucks like a corporate whore in yaletownn. my life has been half-sweet this no whip that and oddly enough, i'm enjoying it. the company is so structured that it is easy to fit in by simply playing by the rules. <br /><br />i completed the final draft of my essay and submitted it to my prof last night. next week is the final class and then i will be off until the first week of january. Amanda and i both have spots reserved in the Counselling Youth course. i am going to pick up my textbook next week so i can read it over the break.<br /><br />i have been making more time for myself lately. i have been doing less work for yq! and focussing more on crafting and reading. i need to reformat my gym schedule, as i've missed out on quite a bit of sessions due to a sore back last week. the silly thing is that i didn't realize how busy i really was until a cute boy mentioned it to me. that was when i realized that there are certain things worth making time for. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:nowayoftelling:52664 2005-12-04T16:26:23Z 2005-12-04T17:01:52Z i'm <s>doing</s> teaching an intro to crochetting workshop at the <b>free school</b> today!<br /><br />5pm<br />spartacus books<br /><br />FREE!!!<br /><br />hastings and cambie beside dressew<br /><br />bring your own hook if you can! :) urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:nowayoftelling:51721 2005-12-02T06:51:30Z 2005-12-02T06:51:30Z The Weakerthans Clarissa started moving her stuff in tonight and she has already put decorations up in the living room. so sweet!<br /><br />tonight, at the drop-in, we played star wars monopoly and my inner geek emerged. i have decided to hunt for my favourite childhood toy -- the ewok village!<br /><br />i was trained on bookmanager today and learned how to order stock for the store. i placed an order for some of Dennis Cooper's novels, including a special one for myself.<br /><br />life is good day! urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:nowayoftelling:51022 2005-11-30T23:38:51Z 2005-11-30T23:40:11Z Bloc Party so here is a list of the must-see indie films of 2005:<br /><br /><a href="http://www.imdb.com/title/tt0388795/">Brokeback Mountain</a> <br /><i>Starring Jake Gyllenhaal, Heath Ledger, and Michelle Williams. Directed by Ang Lee.</i><br /><br /><img src="http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v105/mybigdreams/brokeback-mountain-740058.jpg" alt="Image hosted by Photobucket.com"><br /><br />An epic love story set against the sweeping vistas of Wyoming and Texas, Brokeback Mountain tells the story of two young men - a ranch-hand and a rodeo cowboy - who meet in the summer of 1963, and unexpectedly forge a lifelong connection, one whose complications, joys and tragedies provide a testament to the endurance and power of love.<br /><br /><a href="http://www.imdb.com/title/tt0379725/">Capote</a><br /><i>Starring Phillip Seymour Hoffman</i><br /><br /><img src="http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v105/mybigdreams/capote.jpg" alt="Image hosted by Photobucket.com"><br /><br />Truman Capote, during his research for his book In Cold Blood, an account of the murder of a Kansas family, the writer develops a close relationship with Perry Smith, one of the killers.<br /><br /><a href="http://www.imdb.com/title/tt0433383/">Good Night and Good Luck</a><br /><i>Starring David Strathairn, Robert Downey Jr., and Patricia Clarkson. Directed by George Clooney.</i><br /><br /><img src="http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v105/mybigdreams/goodnight2.jpg" alt="Image hosted by Photobucket.com"><br /><br />Broadcast journalist Edward Murrow looks to bring down Senator Joseph McCarthy.<br /><br /><a href="http://www.imdb.com/title/tt0420015/">Nine Lives</a><br /><i>Starring Glenn Close and Dakota Fanning</i><br /><br /><img src="http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v105/mybigdreams/NineLives.jpg" alt="Image hosted by Photobucket.com"><br /><br />Captives of the very relationships that define and sustain them, nine women resiliently meet the travails and disappointments of life.<br /><br /><a href="http://www.imdb.com/title/tt0367089/">The Squid and the Whale</a><br /><i>Starring Owen Kline, Jeff Daniels, Laura Linney, and Jesse Eisenberg.</i><br /><br /><img src="http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v105/mybigdreams/the_squid_and_the_whale_01.jpg" alt="Image hosted by Photobucket.com"><br /><br />Based on the true childhood experiences of Noah Baumbach and his brother, The Squid and the Whale tells the touching story of two young boys dealing with their parents divorce in Brooklyn in the 1980's.<br /><br /><a href="http://www.imdb.com/title/tt0419294/">The Three Burials of Melquiades Estrada</a><br /><i>Directed by and starring Tommy Lee Jones</i><br /><br /><img src="http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v105/mybigdreams/rthreeburials.jpg" alt="Image hosted by Photobucket.com"><br /><br />Ranch hand Pete Perkins looks to fulfill the promise to his recently deceased best friend by burying him in his hometown in Mexico.<br /><br /><a href="http://www.imdb.com/title/tt0407265/">Transamerica</a><br /><i>Starring Felicity Huffman and Kevin Zegers.</i><br /><br /><img src="http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v105/mybigdreams/pre_transamerica250.jpg" alt="Image hosted by Photobucket.com"><br /><br />A pre-operative male-to-female transsexual takes an unexpected journey when she learns that she fathered a son, now a teenage runaway hustling on the streets of New York.<br /><br />also nominated:<br /><br />the beautiful country, brick, broken flowers, conventioneers, crash, fixing frank, forty shades of blue, happy endings, hustle and flow, jellysmoke, junebug, keane, lackawanna blues, last days, me you and everyone we know, mysterious skin, our very own, room, the puffy chair, thumbsucker, and the war within. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:nowayoftelling:50716 2005-11-30T18:40:25Z 2005-11-30T18:40:25Z Bright Eyes Unsweetened (and Outspoken) went REALLY well last night! Kim and Lisa B did a double feature, we had a really strong open mic lineup which included Ms Spelt and C.R. Avery, and i hosted drunkenly. i read some extracts from Dennis Cooper's upcoming novel <u>The Sluts</u>, which detailed the self-destruction of a male street worker through fictional reviews on a website. we made enough money to make up for the lack of money from last month and allowed me to buy all three of Lisa's chapbooks. and we threw the event at El Cocal as Zesty's had doublebooked for the night. luckily, we were given the green light to throw the rest of our events there as well!<br /><br />Michael is moving out today, so today will be filled with housekeeping and preparing for Clarissa's arrival tomorrow. i am really excited!!! it is too bad that i will be working all day tomorrow, so i won't be here to fully welcome her. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:nowayoftelling:50478 2005-11-30T00:09:36Z 2005-11-30T00:09:36Z Controller Controller <img src="http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v105/mybigdreams/file0001.jpg" alt="Image hosted by Photobucket.com"> urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:nowayoftelling:50198 2005-11-29T23:11:52Z 2005-11-29T23:14:22Z Pretty Girls Make Graves i survived my opening training shifts. 5am the last two mornings. i just woke up from a well-deserved nap. the walk to work this morning was beautiful with the snow falling from the sky and sticking to the ground as it was still cold enough. now, the roads are covered with slush and it is not the same winter wonderland that had me dancing around and singing while all of you slept (except Mandy, who came in for a coffee :P)<br /><br />i got my first piece of personal mail!!! (funny that i've been living here for seven months now) it was from my ohio boyfriend Dave, who went me a collection of pictures that i am going to craft into funky magnets. Dave is love&lt;3<br /><br />about school: two thirds of our class did not correctly complete the individual education plan. unfortnately, i was in that two-thirds. the prof, lovely as he is, will give us a chance to fix up our assignments. fortunately, my assignment just needs a paragraph-worth of words added to the text to make it perfect. aside from the omission of the evaluation process, he LOVED my plan, so i am happy.<br /><br />tonight, Lili is going to cut and dye my hair and then we are <a href="http://www.livejournal.com/users/nowayoftelling/49265.html">unsweeten</a>ing it up! i need to find something witty to read while hosting. i wonder how many of the dreamy boys that i invited will show up? ;) urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:nowayoftelling:49716 2005-11-29T06:14:32Z 2005-11-29T06:14:32Z love is walking in the soft rain and noticing the moment that those raindrops turn into the first snow of the city.<br /><br />*swoon* urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:nowayoftelling:49592 2005-11-28T05:34:57Z 2005-11-28T05:34:57Z mmmmm my potluck went deliciously wonderful &lt;3 i made vegan potato salad for the first time, Fergie made lasagna, Clarissa and Jordan made a seven-layered dip, Stephanie and Sean made guacamole, Jen brought wine, and Kim and Devin brought cookies. it was nice to see people since i have been so swamped for the last two weeks. and watching Braeden try to ride my skateboard while chasing Konstantine was too adorable for words. i would like to have people over again near the end of december. by that time, Clarissa will be moved all in and this place will feel like home again.<br /><br />this morning, i was called in for a shift at starbucks and then i did some work with yq! a few hours making drinks and a few hours orientating new board members. and i will be finished my starbucks training by the end of this week. i'm really excited. maybe, i will be able to handle having visitors by that point.<br /><br />i hope to get my paper back tomorrow! i'm really excited to see what the prof thought of it. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:nowayoftelling:49265 2005-11-27T01:14:32Z 2005-11-27T01:14:32Z The Postal Service this tuesday<br /><br /><h1>Unsweetened (and Outspoken)</h1><br /><br />Queer open mic night <br />(everyone welcome!)<br /><br />and chapbook release party <br />for cute, angry little lesbian <br /><h2>Kim Shaughnessy</h2> <br />and gender revolutionary <br /><h2>Lisa B.</h2><br /><br />hosted by<br /><h3>nathaniel k. wolfe</h3><br /><br />sliding scale $3-5<br />no one will be turned away at the door<br /><br /><b>note the venue change!</b><br /><h3>El Cocal</h3><br />1037 Commercial Drive (@ Napier)<br /><i>just one block south and across the street from Zesty's</i><br /><br />sign-up 8 pm<br />show 8:30pm <br /><br />Contact unsweetened.outspoken@gmail.com to participate or just show up! urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:nowayoftelling:49132 2005-11-26T19:12:36Z 2005-11-28T05:37:35Z The Weakerthans i just finished watching an episode of the oc because i'm a geek like that. it was something to keep me awake while still in a zombie-like sleep. last night, i planned on going to bed early, but Lili, Karen, and i stayed late at Courtney's slumber party, at which i was the only person to do any slumbering. luckily, Carla came and rescued us from the world called Kitsilano. it was a fun evening, filled with girly movies, silly games, and Karen's hothothot geekiness. but i am prepping my body for monday's 5am shift, so i forced myself to wake up at 10am. tomorrow morning, i will be waking up at 8am, hitting the gym, and then smothering myself in non-profit goodness. i am missing out on a family dinner that night, but i need to be responsible.<br /><br />i received my first paycheque from starbucks. as i was hired in the middle of a pay period, it was only for four shifts and quite small. i threw together a budget to pay off the overdue on my gas bill and keep my visa current, forcing me to wonder how much i will have to sacrifice next month in order to pay my tuition. maybe yq! will get a sugar-daddy-funder and they will be able to give me a nice advance to keep me in school. there is no way that i am taking next semester off though. i'd rather starve and not celebrate the holidays at all.<br /><br />so i am decided to accept the nomination to run for the board of directors of the vancouver dyke march. it really will not bother me if i am not elected -- i am merely going to present my ideas to the membership and see if they will elect me. if they want bi/pan/trans inclusion in their events and decide to elect me, then i will make a loud voice for myself. if not, i might just try again next year. i honestly do not have any more room on my plate, but the pressure to run for a seat is too strong. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:nowayoftelling:48322 2005-11-24T09:42:24Z 2005-11-24T09:42:24Z i worked bar today for the first time. i spent four hours making coffee drinks for unsuspecting folk. it was one of the quickest four hours of my life. this job is so relaxing!<br /><br />afterwards, i spent seven hours in the yq! office, filing and organizing. Mel came in for the last two hours and allowed her ocd to tear apart the storage room. it looks great now! and i got through so much paperwork and files. sunday is the orientation for the new board members. i am going to hit up the vancouver dyke march agm beforehand as a few of their members really want me to run for their board. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:nowayoftelling:47648 2005-11-23T18:19:55Z 2005-11-23T18:19:55Z Pretty Girls Make Graves and the last one was these beautiful people as well...<br /><br /><h1>pretty girls make graves</h1><br /><br />wednesday, november 30th<br />the red room<br /><br /><h2>$14</h2><br /><br />please please please someone say that they will go with me&lt;3! urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:nowayoftelling:47425 2005-11-23T05:51:29Z 2005-11-23T05:51:29Z greatest news in the world!<br /><br />so it turns out that the planned roommate wasn't returning my emails and was being flakey<br /><br />but<br /><br />i got an email from the person i really wanted to move in and i just talked on the phone and SHE'S MOVING IN!!!<br /><br />omgz<br /><br />happiest boy in the world here!